Sunday, September 5, 2010

Im MIssing You So Much


I guess by the time you read this letter of mine youre eventually back home, i wish i could possibly chat with you now so that i could see you and talk to you what happened there. Im missing you a lot baby, i hope u knew that, even though we dont see each other very often but your here in my heart and every hour i always think of you. I wish to tell you a lot of things and reassured you always that i am here and that i will always keep my promise of loving you every single day. I wish you were fine now baby and how i wish im there to give you comfort, but i love you always and always and its a promise of forever.mwah

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Quicky Update

I knew you will be going tomorrow to an actvity babe, but i just want you to know that not a single minute i have forgotten you, i missed you so much honey pie. You know i realized that as days go by much that i learn and i have understood your purpose in coming into my life, as ive said you re my soulmate coz you really prove something else to me. i love you and take good care always for me,

Friday, August 20, 2010

A Mother and a Wife what i dream of now, i want to have my own child while being a great wife. My honey pie wonders why i insist on getting pregnant this year, he even asks on what i eat because i am thinking this long term plan right on our conversation but what he doesnt know is that i want to be with him, im tired of being alone, i want to have someone to hold hands, someone to lie with at night and someone to teased with when i felt being childish. I missed honey;s laugh,hehehhe,i just love seeing him even everyday, lats night i was in deep thought, i guess ive found my one great love, my soulmate and the father of my children and a husband to me.I love u so much honey pie.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

How Are U Baby

Hows my baby now? i missed u so much baby, i wish you are gine now, hows the painful leg hon? you know that i love u so much, myabe youre still at work now but i want you to know that i am stil here, just here, still loving you and will always love you, until you dont want me anymore, until the end of time, until we grow old, until we shared our ast breath.mwah

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Love and Just Love

Love is the most fairy taled word attached and invented by a person who i guess have feelt the way love should be felt. And as what everybody says, its about understanding, patience and lots and lots of love. Honestly baby, i couldnt ask for more right now, coz ive met the one person who have loved me inspite all my imperfections, has accepted me despite my unacceptable and moody personality. This page wouldnt be enough to tell you that i love u so much and much more than what u expect. Its just hon, i beg your understanding that sometimes i am just so moody especially if i am in my lowest times. Times where i ask for understanding coz i had hurt you even if i dont like and i would like to hurt you. You know babe, you are the kindest man ive ever met, i love u and nothing will change. I hope youre legs is already fine babe,mwah mwah.

18th August

   18th august i think i wont forget this day......because i feeling sick physically and mentally.....physically due to small injury happened to me yesterday..and mentally that my girl is ignoring me not replying though she is on line.........well not her fault maybe i don't deserve her..i always want her to be happy.. i wish get up from this bed and just go off to some place where i don't feel alone it might be a railway station too but don't want to be home right now...cant see my girl in front of me and she is not talking to me and avoiding me..tough to bear this..don't know the reason i cant go anywhere as my legs r still hurting due to that injury...small injury bit painful..but  i am feeing left out today...not because i am alone its just she is on line and still i am alone ...don't know whats happening maybe i should not call her as my girl now.......i wish i can get up and go just a small hope is making em wait for her word...its fine....slowly things r changing and feelings r also i think on her side..but she is the one who gave me hope to live again...hope she wont be the reason to hate the word "LOVE".....take care....bye..........

Monday, August 16, 2010

17th Aug....

   Hi.....Don't know how to start this she is on line but not talking to me...she said she is not feeling well....i don't know if its about health or some thing else...For one moment i thought she don't want to talk to me...i know she loves me..but there r things which she cant share with me......i decided not to force her and not to disturb her.... after waiting for an hour ..though we r on words..maybe she is doing some thing important..i can write here what ever i felt to say to u when u r on line..but i don't have any opportunity right now so...i miss u...and missed u a lot and will be missing u always....i am not sad..its just u r the first one i talked to after i woke up...what a wonderful day it is...thanks for the words and love yesterday was a great day i have seen her smiling at me happy being with me.......its wonderful to spend time with my girl and seeing her smiling....being away form parents u r the only girl i wish tot talk after my mom...u r worth for it and some times i feel like i am disturbing her but she never made me think like that ...she is pleasure to have in my life.........i love u my baby............

Thursday, August 12, 2010

love u baby

Wow......My girl sent a romantic ecard for me...been a beautiful day after recieving it...i dont know how to express this joy of thing i want to make u clear baby..u r lawyas mine and i am urs....i came at our monthsary i couldnt send u messages as u r on mobile..i tried to send u baby i couldnt....i came to online though i am at my work palce...and i saw ur oflfines yesterday i felt good and tried t send u messages but couldnt..i dont know if u recieve the messages i sent u today....i love u so much baby..anyway for me every day is ours and monthsaries are alot in future..and i was online at night time too but ur not there...and i didnt get mad at u that u r not online before when u said u want to talk at night i was online baby....whole night actually..didnt know when u might come....anyway i dont mind anyway i know u love me so much and i am happy that u r not out in late nights..good girl......lov eu baby...take caree..i will be waiting for u allthe tomorrow day after tomorrow.........i kept off for u.........muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh missing u alot baby love u.........

It Must have Been Love

It is sad to wake up one morning that youve lost the very person who make sup your day but whats more heart breaking is waking up everyday realizing that youve lost a diamond because you were busy collecting stones. i knew there are lots of things to compromise with, they may say that love just happens, but not all love that happens has happy ending, though we want a fairy tale like story but its still with us to complete the story until the very end.
I still believe in happy ending but still i want both of us happy, if what i think a happy ending is not the happy one for him, them im letting him go, if its the best way to make him happy.Its love and love is about sacrifice.

I terribly MIssed U

I dont know whats happening, why you are not here, why you dont want to show up, i really really missed u, im really just wondering why even at the most important day of our relationship, you havent even greeted me, are u giving up on us? I know i can sense what the problem, i knew its so hard for us babe but pls im begging, pls stay. I knew its even harder that im acting so childish lately, i cant promise i will not do it anymore but i promise to try it even better, to act matured for you. I missed u so much honey, far from you imagine. You know we have promised together that we will fight for our relationship, but why is it that i felt being alone now, why i felt i am alone when we shoudl be together. Whats happening babe?
I hope you will not leave me without knowing whats wrong, i knew i dont have the right to demand for an explanation but at least give me some clues if i still have reason to call you "babe", i still want to become your woman hon., and i still dream that your my man and will always be my man. If you feel something not good lately hon, i am very sorry, i didnt meant to offend you or hurt you in any way. I love u so much.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Happy Monthsary Baby

I knew we have less time lately because of our schedules and maybe because of time conflict but i hope we can settle this things and adjust to each others imperfections gradually. I knew there isnt a perfect relationship and neither a perfect partner but as what they say it about making him perfect in your eyes and a lot of understanding always. I am proud of the fact that ur one of the few people who have lots of patience and understanding. I knew you are very stress and you have lots of things to think everyday but this doesnt stops you from giving me always a quality time.

Happy MOnthsary Babe
I love u always

Monday, August 9, 2010

Im So Sorry Baby

I don't know actually how to start this, i knew its all my fault, im becoming so childish and i cant understand myself too, i just realized it. I knew its so hard for both of us especially that were on the other side of the world. maybe then i was just so childish and its so different form child like. I knew it just started about the cam and i understand too that he wanted to see me, im sorry hon, maybe at that time i was just not okey that's why it end up that way but honey honey please know that i really don't intend to hurt you, maybe it just come that sometimes we have things that we cant tell, and i guess we need to have strong communication. I love u so much and i don't want you to be hurt too. The blame is mine. I hope you'll forgive me, whats important we have learned from this. Hug Hon.

Saturday, August 7, 2010


Yesterday was a bad day,....i dont know why? i was not able to talk to my girl freely.. Bit scared.. The more i am missing her the more i am getting scared..i dont want to loose her in my life...i dont knwo why i expected and wished to se eher yesterday.......i agree that she never said that she will have cam and she comes to online for me... But the fact is i am not used to this type of relationship.. But this realtion gave me happiness in life and some peace in heart tooo.... Today its saturday i thoguht she might be online today but she might be busy today........hope she is fine and safe....This blog is like my diary...where i can write what ever i think and what ever i feel on a day....Love is something which binds two persons in one realtion and makes the relation grow in to a family....i dont know why i wished to see her badly yesterday....maybe i am missing her and being alone and living alone i wished to see someone i love to make myself pleasant feel i am not alone...maybe i should understand her difficulties and her problems ...but i understood my fault of mine yesterday and i dont want to repeat it again....i will try to be patience and try to control my feelings....the more i love u the more i am missing u...its increasing day by u baby take care,................

Thursday, August 5, 2010

My baby....

After reading the post of my girl i feel like she is happy about our realtionship which made me feel good.Becoz being far from her some times i feel if i am useless for her and getting lot of questions i giving what a girl needs from a bf? is she happy being in long distacne relationship? is she happy with me? or will she be with me for ever? Till now i havent seen her in cam but still i am nto feleing it as a drawback....the excitement is growing up minute by minute...and its my luck for having a girl like her in my life...After she came into my life there is some satisfaction in life...some fulfillness...some smile in face when ever i take her u so have beena great thing in my life..its like i cant measure it how value u r in my u so much......

I Couldnt Ask for MOre

Lately i was thinking about u babe, thinking of the reason why Goda gave u to me. Perhaps because HE knew that i am in need of someone i can lean on, who will be my bestfriend, my lover and even just a companion but now i realized ive found more of u, you are the greatest partner i ever had and will ever have. Thank u for making me feel special always, thank u for loving me without reservation and thank u for choosing me to become part of your life. I was never been this happy before because u really take good care of me from the very start. You are the best boyfriend i ever had and perhaps it is indeed true that in all those that came along there will be one that will stand tall, and you stand tall among them not only because u have proven youre worth but because you have proved to me that youre worth of my love, youre worth of a true love and youre worth of a memories. I wish i could thank u now for everything that you became part of, for my smiles everyday and for giving me strength in all the tests in my life, lastly i want to give you the credits for become me whole again as a person, for regaining my self worth coz after the break up with an ex, i lost the confidence than i once had.
Thank u honey for accpeting me too for who i am and for im not, though its so painful before to accept the reality that i was been fooled by my bf because he found someone else, i still beg on him to come back coz i felt i belong with him and that i cannot find anymore a man like him but now i realized its his lost coz he cant find anymore a woman who can love him truelly as i love him the most. When i think of the heartaches i wen thru with him, all the insults that he had given to me, when he degraded me to the utmost level a woman could ever had, when he had left me with nothin, when he had taken my self worth and respect, i began to think if those were the things i want to reminisce. And now, when i can feel how much you gave me importance, i can really say that God is fair enough to reward me for all the miseries ive went thu. I may be unlucky for finding a person who have lost my self identity but in the end i was the most lucky woman for finding you at the most perfect time of my life.
THis may be the longet letter i have ever made in my life, but i dont care for once i wanted the whole world to know that once in a persons life there will come a time that u can be sure of the one person you have, i may not be sure of the future but i still want, i wish, i am dreaming of the entirety of us together.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Baby's New haircut

Well i am so surprised, the boyfie has a new haircut and he looks fantastic really, well i knew he was so busy yesterday but i loved the fact that he is happy now. I love the new look of my honey pie but if he wants me to cut his hair next time, i am free of charge.hehehe. I miss u my honey pie so much, we just chatted a while ago. BUt still missed him.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

greeting Card from my Girl.......

hmmmmm What a pleasant day it i got a greeting card from my girl........i am feeling very excited after seeing it...dont knwo how to express this feeling of happiness and the wonderful feleing of being loved so much...i dont know if i really deserve this or not.......but i am feleing lucky and will be my pleasure to wait for my girl and get her in my life in right time........Love u so much baby.......u really made me feel special........wish to see my baby today......after seeing that ecard the first feeling i felt is to hug her to thank her so much for the love i got from my girl.......and to realise that u r mine baby.............that mine feleing is giving me so much energy and hope in life for moving forward and our relation ship is going in right way nothing is going what else i can wish for baby................missing u so u baby take care....hope u r wiht good health just take care of u muahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I Love You Because.....

Maybe i may never had this chance again to thank u for coming into my life, maybe i may be forgetful or in every passing day i forgot to tell you that u mean the world to me. Before i was askin myself why i havent met the person im looking for, and during the time the man i loved most left me, i said to myself i will no longer love the way i have loved that man. BUt now i can really say that youre the man ive been waiting for, i love u so muc how, whenever i remember all the pains and heartaches that i went through and the day i met, it was a fair bargain. You came into my life the moment i needed someone, the moment i needed a shoulder and at the perfect moment i am already ready to be in love and to try love the second time around. Youre coming has brought me to be a better woman once more. I want to wait for the day i can tell you personally how much i love you. I wish you could also wait for me honey. Everyday i am thinking of you- of you alone. Right now, i just had one more wish - to see you and the day i can give myself to you. Love you, love you and love u.

Monday, August 2, 2010

I love u Honey

I am looking around and waiting for you for few days but seems our schedules did not meet my baby. Juts want you to know that i missed u so much and i missed your talk and everything that we usually do. how i wish i could talk to u now. I love u my baby, our monthsary is already fast approaching, mwah

Friday, July 30, 2010

love u

Today is saturday....wishing to see my baby ...she is bit low sicne two days...hope i was there to take care of her......its hard but maybe these things r important for us to strengthen our realtion and move forward....These days i am coming to online more than before for her..its quite a new experience ..waiting for my baby missing her....looking at her pics.....i dont know how she is after that robbery incident....i love my baby so much......being a doctor i sometimes question myself if i can give her happiness that a girl wants from her boy friend..because of my timings ..but i will try my level best for my girl to give her what ever she wants and what ever possible for when i woke up from bed i switched on the Pc to see her pic..i wished i could talk and see her when i woke up..its always good to see some one close to heart........there is some thing in her which is so fascinating .coz i didnt knwo that i can fall in love wiht otu seeing a girl in real.......and i never felt it as disadvantage coz i know i fould a precious diamond in the form of my girl u baby muahhhhhhhhhhhhhh missing u alot............muahhhhhhhhhh

My Man

THere are thre dearest man in my life right now, the first is my father who have loved me unconditionally since birth, sesond are my brothers who were always there for me even during my lowest times and lastly my love who showed me how great life is when shared with someone special, i can no longer ask for now except to strenghten our relationship amidst trials. I want to see myself with him until the day i can say our vows. I love you baby and thank u for being there for me.

Thursday, July 29, 2010


Today is the most terrifying day of my life, i couldn't believe it will happen to me as none would eventually want this things to happen. When i arrived this morning at my room, the door surprised with a mess, everything was in chaos, my valuables was not anymore there and my phone was taken by people still up to now unidentified. I cried for help because i was helpless and i was shocked of what had happened. Shocked because i couldn't believe how unsafe i was, and scared too for myself. MY parents called me up very early to know how i was doing. I knew how worried they were when i told them what happened. Now, i certainly realized that the world is full of bitterness and evils. I wish i am protected by my family but i have to face the fact that i live alone, i earn for my living and i should stand by that fact. My other roommates advised me to sleep first and be calm, ive taken their advice, i knew i was physically tired and my brain was exhausted because of work and now i am terrified. I believe resting was the best thing to do, but i couldn't, i just cried and cried, as if its the ends of the world. I wish youre here babe, i wish youre here by my side, where i can sleep in your shoulder and cry all the hurt out. You know when you feel helpless you think of the one person that matters the most, you think of him as if you want him by your side that urgent, and i feel that way at that very moment. I wanted his presence badly so that someone could say everything will be okey, at least i could hear him saying "youre safe here",but i knew things are not the way i want to. But still the thought that he is there, thinking of me alleviates what im feeling now. When youre at your lowest, he brightens your day and he is the very reason why you wanted to go up from your bed and start another day.

I Just Thought

I always thought that love is about a fairy tale, you will find your prince charming soon, marry and lived happily ever after, but now i began to wonder why cinderrela did not broke his heart even once, and always almost all the books that ive ready has happy endings. Is it because they have pretty face? but im sure not because if love is based on looks then celibrity has the best marriages but its not, then is it based on wealth? i guess not either, coz if it is, then the kings and the queens lives most of their lives happily, but its not either. Maybe its the magic, not the gene either, its the magic of love.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

missing u

Cathy...this is one name which i am getting in my mind allthe time..while eating, drinking, sleeping,working she eats, how she drinks,how she sleeps? how she loooks while doing these things....not tired of imagining...but very eager to experience these things in she wrote how she felt when she heared my voice..Now i wish to say how i felt when i saw her i got some pics of her where i can see how pretty and cute she looks when smiling...especially she looks like an angel in pink and white..till now i saw those pics for atleast twenty to thirty times to findout in which pic she looks gorgeous....i failed to figure it out and came to conclusion that she is same allthe way and same in pics...what ever she wears what ever she do she is always same...looking forward for seeing her live in future.....she says i can read her mind..but i dont know if i can and i can say only one thing ..i.e.. its my pleasure being in realtion with u baby and love u so much for making me feel full. I dont knwo if i am much caring or not but i want u to be healthy and hearty all the time so that i dotn have to worry as i am far from u so much baby........................muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh miss u baby

Sweet Meme

This is one of the sweetest and happy memories i ever had with him. First time i heard his voice and exchange sweet conversations, ist like were very near with each other. What i really love about him is that he is the person who will really care for u above all else, tells you to eat, tell you to do what he thinks is right and really cared for u sincerely. I wish i coudl keep him forever in my heart, i can love u hon with no reservation, i can take good care of you like no one else did and i can love u with no conditions. I hope somehow we will be give the chance to meet and i can tell u personally how you mean to me and how you have hooked my heart from the very start. I wish i could lie down there beside you, in your arms and just talked about anything that we think, i wish i could cook for u and do things as you wish, i wish you could just love me as i have loved you now. I love u enought for me to compromise and enough for me to sacrifice.

My girl.........

I know we are apart from eachother but the feeing that i am not alone makes me feel so happy and bit sad that i am far from you.But i know we are made for eachother and we have whole life infornt of us wiht lots of love waiting for eachother. WE maybe physically far but we always think about us in every moment and in every work we do in our daily life. The moments r precious for me becoz she is special in my life and now i am not able to dream about other things else her.some times i get surprised how we met in internet and how we fell in snto love at first sight becoz i never seen her till now except in pic. but i didnt feel its unreal becoz i loved her character first then her beauty. As i am lucky i got a gorgeous girl freind so can expect a gorgeous doll as a daughter like her in my u my baby and love u so much........cathy..

LOve Cant Wait

Life is really so lonely without you, i just realized it after a few days of emptiness, for days that weve chatted i am simply used to our everyday routine that we always chat everyday or if not theres no week that i cant help but talk to u, and now its quite so sad that we are on a situation that i am on the other part of the world and youre at the other side of it, but i knew its work related and i understand that. You know hon, i hate the night lately coz everytime im alone i think of u,i miss everything.Cant wait the day we will finally see each other and savor the moment. Also hon, i am worried if youre just fine there, hopefully...Please always bear in mind that i love u so much,,soo much..

Another Day

When the sun rise, it doesnt just mean another day is coming but more importantly it means a hope to everyone who has lost the game yesterday, its a day where everyone couls start dreaming again, another day to start up again and another chance to make the mistake of yesterday right. Isnt it great to think that in our life we had the chance to meet someone who could change the world for us? and isnt it amazing that in this journey there will be a day that will come that we can meet a man/woman who can change our world. LUckily, i have met someone who have change my life and who made me felt cared and loved. I can say that he is the one person who stands tall among the rest. I may not say that we are perfect for each other because we have our flaws and our indifferences but i am proud to say that i cannot see myself with other man except to him.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

LOve and Sacrifice

THis blog is about love, about trust and about sacrifice. Though we both lives in different country, vary in culture and share different views and opniions but we are binded with same vision, the two of us walking down the aisle in a vow uttered in a special unioun, soon.