Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Quicky Update

I knew you will be going tomorrow to an actvity babe, but i just want you to know that not a single minute i have forgotten you, i missed you so much honey pie. You know i realized that as days go by much that i learn and i have understood your purpose in coming into my life, as ive said you re my soulmate coz you really prove something else to me. i love you and take good care always for me,

Friday, August 20, 2010

A Mother and a Wife

..is what i dream of now, i want to have my own child while being a great wife. My honey pie wonders why i insist on getting pregnant this year, he even asks on what i eat because i am thinking this long term plan right on our conversation but what he doesnt know is that i want to be with him, im tired of being alone, i want to have someone to hold hands, someone to lie with at night and someone to teased with when i felt being childish. I missed honey;s laugh,hehehhe,i just love seeing him even everyday, lats night i was in deep thought, i guess ive found my one great love, my soulmate and the father of my children and a husband to me.I love u so much honey pie.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

How Are U Baby

Hows my baby now? i missed u so much baby, i wish you are gine now, hows the painful leg hon? you know that i love u so much, myabe youre still at work now but i want you to know that i am stil here, just here, still loving you and will always love you, until you dont want me anymore, until the end of time, until we grow old, until we shared our ast breath.mwah

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Love and Just Love

Love is the most fairy taled word attached and invented by a person who i guess have feelt the way love should be felt. And as what everybody says, its about understanding, patience and lots and lots of love. Honestly baby, i couldnt ask for more right now, coz ive met the one person who have loved me inspite all my imperfections, has accepted me despite my unacceptable and moody personality. This page wouldnt be enough to tell you that i love u so much and much more than what u expect. Its just hon, i beg your understanding that sometimes i am just so moody especially if i am in my lowest times. Times where i ask for understanding coz i had hurt you even if i dont like and i would like to hurt you. You know babe, you are the kindest man ive ever met, i love u and nothing will change. I hope youre legs is already fine babe,mwah mwah.

18th August

   18th august i think i wont forget this day......because i feeling sick physically and mentally.....physically due to small injury happened to me yesterday..and mentally that my girl is ignoring me not replying though she is on line.........well not her fault maybe i don't deserve her..i always want her to be happy.. i wish get up from this bed and just go off to some place where i don't feel alone it might be a railway station too but don't want to be home right now...cant see my girl in front of me and she is not talking to me and avoiding me..tough to bear this..don't know the reason ..today i cant go anywhere as my legs r still hurting due to that injury...small injury bit painful..but  i am feeing left out today...not because i am alone its just she is on line and still i am alone ...don't know whats happening maybe i should not call her as my girl now.......i wish i can get up and go off..it just a small hope is making em wait for her word...its fine....slowly things r changing and feelings r also i think on her side..but she is the one who gave me hope to live again...hope she wont be the reason to hate the word "LOVE".....take care....bye..........

Monday, August 16, 2010

17th Aug....

   Hi.....Don't know how to start this post.....today she is on line but not talking to me...she said she is not feeling well....i don't know if its about health or some thing else...For one moment i thought she don't want to talk to me...i know she loves me..but there r things which she cant share with me......i decided not to force her and not to disturb her.... after waiting for an hour ..though we r on line..no words..maybe she is doing some thing important..i can write here what ever i felt to say to u when u r on line..but i don't have any opportunity right now so...i miss u...and missed u a lot and will be missing u always....i am not sad..its just u r the first one i talked to after i woke up...what a wonderful day it is...thanks for the words and love yesterday was a great day i have seen her smiling at me happy being with me.......its wonderful to spend time with my girl and seeing her smiling....being away form parents u r the only girl i wish tot talk after my mom...u r worth for it and some times i feel like i am disturbing her but she never made me think like that ...she is pleasure to have in my life.........i love u my baby............

Thursday, August 12, 2010

love u baby

Wow......My girl sent a romantic ecard for me...been a beautiful day after recieving it...i dont know how to express this joy of love.....one thing i want to make u clear baby..u r lawyas mine and i am urs....i came at our monthsary i couldnt send u messages as u r on mobile..i tried to send u baby i couldnt....i came to online though i am at my work palce...and i saw ur oflfines yesterday i felt good and tried t send u messages but couldnt..i dont know if u recieve the messages i sent u today....i love u so much baby..anyway for me every day is ours and monthsaries are alot in future..and i was online at night time too but ur not there...and i didnt get mad at u that u r not online before when u said u want to talk at night i was online baby....whole night actually..didnt know when u might come....anyway i dont mind anyway i know u love me so much and i am happy that u r not out in late nights..good girl......lov eu baby...take caree..i will be waiting for u allthe day..................today tomorrow day after tomorrow.........i kept off for u.........muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh missing u alot baby love u.........

It Must have Been Love

It is sad to wake up one morning that youve lost the very person who make sup your day but whats more heart breaking is waking up everyday realizing that youve lost a diamond because you were busy collecting stones. i knew there are lots of things to compromise with, they may say that love just happens, but not all love that happens has happy ending, though we want a fairy tale like story but its still with us to complete the story until the very end.
I still believe in happy ending but still i want both of us happy, if what i think a happy ending is not the happy one for him, them im letting him go, if its the best way to make him happy.Its love and love is about sacrifice.

I terribly MIssed U

I dont know whats happening, why you are not here, why you dont want to show up, i really really missed u, im really just wondering why even at the most important day of our relationship, you havent even greeted me, are u giving up on us? I know i can sense what the problem, i knew its so hard for us babe but pls im begging, pls stay. I knew its even harder that im acting so childish lately, i cant promise i will not do it anymore but i promise to try it even better, to act matured for you. I missed u so much honey, far from you imagine. You know we have promised together that we will fight for our relationship, but why is it that i felt being alone now, why i felt i am alone when we shoudl be together. Whats happening babe?
I hope you will not leave me without knowing whats wrong, i knew i dont have the right to demand for an explanation but at least give me some clues if i still have reason to call you "babe", i still want to become your woman hon., and i still dream that your my man and will always be my man. If you feel something not good lately hon, i am very sorry, i didnt meant to offend you or hurt you in any way. I love u so much.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Happy Monthsary Baby

I knew we have less time lately because of our schedules and maybe because of time conflict but i hope we can settle this things and adjust to each others imperfections gradually. I knew there isnt a perfect relationship and neither a perfect partner but as what they say it about making him perfect in your eyes and a lot of understanding always. I am proud of the fact that ur one of the few people who have lots of patience and understanding. I knew you are very stress and you have lots of things to think everyday but this doesnt stops you from giving me always a quality time.

Happy MOnthsary Babe
I love u always

Monday, August 9, 2010

Im So Sorry Baby

I don't know actually how to start this, i knew its all my fault, im becoming so childish and i cant understand myself too, i just realized it. I knew its so hard for both of us especially that were on the other side of the world. maybe then i was just so childish and its so different form child like. I knew it just started about the cam and i understand too that he wanted to see me, im sorry hon, maybe at that time i was just not okey that's why it end up that way but honey honey please know that i really don't intend to hurt you, maybe it just come that sometimes we have things that we cant tell, and i guess we need to have strong communication. I love u so much and i don't want you to be hurt too. The blame is mine. I hope you'll forgive me, whats important we have learned from this. Hug Hon.

Saturday, August 7, 2010


Yesterday was a bad day,....i dont know why? i was not able to talk to my girl freely.. Bit scared.. The more i am missing her the more i am getting scared..i dont want to loose her in my life...i dont knwo why i expected and wished to se eher yesterday.......i agree that she never said that she will have cam and she comes to online for me... But the fact is i am not used to this type of relationship.. But this realtion gave me happiness in life and some peace in heart tooo.... Today its saturday i thoguht she might be online today but she might be busy today........hope she is fine and safe....This blog is like my diary...where i can write what ever i think and what ever i feel on a day....Love is something which binds two persons in one realtion and makes the relation grow in to a family....i dont know why i wished to see her badly yesterday....maybe i am missing her and being alone and living alone i wished to see someone i love to make myself pleasant ..to feel i am not alone...maybe i should understand her difficulties and her problems ...but i understood my fault of mine yesterday and i dont want to repeat it again....i will try to be patience and try to control my feelings....the more i love u the more i am missing u...its increasing day by day......love u baby take care,................

Thursday, August 5, 2010

My baby....

After reading the post of my girl i feel like she is happy about our realtionship which made me feel good.Becoz being far from her some times i feel if i am useless for her and getting lot of questions like...am i giving what a girl needs from a bf? is she happy being in long distacne relationship? is she happy with me? or will she be with me for ever? Till now i havent seen her in cam but still i am nto feleing it as a drawback....the excitement is growing up minute by minute...and its my luck for having a girl like her in my life...After she came into my life there is some satisfaction in life...some fulfillness...some smile in face when ever i take her name.........love u so much.....baby......u have beena great thing in my life..its like i cant measure it how value u r in my life..........love u so much......

I Couldnt Ask for MOre

Lately i was thinking about u babe, thinking of the reason why Goda gave u to me. Perhaps because HE knew that i am in need of someone i can lean on, who will be my bestfriend, my lover and even just a companion but now i realized ive found more of u, you are the greatest partner i ever had and will ever have. Thank u for making me feel special always, thank u for loving me without reservation and thank u for choosing me to become part of your life. I was never been this happy before because u really take good care of me from the very start. You are the best boyfriend i ever had and perhaps it is indeed true that in all those that came along there will be one that will stand tall, and you stand tall among them not only because u have proven youre worth but because you have proved to me that youre worth of my love, youre worth of a true love and youre worth of a memories. I wish i could thank u now for everything that you became part of, for my smiles everyday and for giving me strength in all the tests in my life, lastly i want to give you the credits for become me whole again as a person, for regaining my self worth coz after the break up with an ex, i lost the confidence than i once had.
Thank u honey for accpeting me too for who i am and for im not, though its so painful before to accept the reality that i was been fooled by my bf because he found someone else, i still beg on him to come back coz i felt i belong with him and that i cannot find anymore a man like him but now i realized its his lost coz he cant find anymore a woman who can love him truelly as i love him the most. When i think of the heartaches i wen thru with him, all the insults that he had given to me, when he degraded me to the utmost level a woman could ever had, when he had left me with nothin, when he had taken my self worth and respect, i began to think if those were the things i want to reminisce. And now, when i can feel how much you gave me importance, i can really say that God is fair enough to reward me for all the miseries ive went thu. I may be unlucky for finding a person who have lost my self identity but in the end i was the most lucky woman for finding you at the most perfect time of my life.
THis may be the longet letter i have ever made in my life, but i dont care for once i wanted the whole world to know that once in a persons life there will come a time that u can be sure of the one person you have, i may not be sure of the future but i still want, i wish, i am dreaming of the entirety of us together.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Baby's New haircut

Well i am so surprised, the boyfie has a new haircut and he looks fantastic really, well i knew he was so busy yesterday but i loved the fact that he is happy now. I love the new look of my honey pie but if he wants me to cut his hair next time, i am free of charge.hehehe. I miss u my honey pie so much, we just chatted a while ago. BUt still missed him.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

greeting Card from my Girl.......

hmmmmm What a pleasant day it is..........today i got a greeting card from my girl........i am feeling very excited after seeing it...dont knwo how to express this feeling of happiness and the wonderful feleing of being loved so much...i dont know if i really deserve this or not.......but i am feleing lucky and will be my pleasure to wait for my girl and get her in my life in right time........Love u so much baby.......u really made me feel special........wish to see my baby today......after seeing that ecard the first feeling i felt is to hug her to thank her so much for the love i got from my girl.......and to realise that u r mine baby.............that mine feleing is giving me so much energy and hope in life for moving forward and our relation ship is going in right way nothing is going worng.......wow what else i can wish for baby................missing u so much........love u baby take care....hope u r wiht good health just take care of u muahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I Love You Because.....

Maybe i may never had this chance again to thank u for coming into my life, maybe i may be forgetful or in every passing day i forgot to tell you that u mean the world to me. Before i was askin myself why i havent met the person im looking for, and during the time the man i loved most left me, i said to myself i will no longer love the way i have loved that man. BUt now i can really say that youre the man ive been waiting for, i love u so muc how, whenever i remember all the pains and heartaches that i went through and the day i met, it was a fair bargain. You came into my life the moment i needed someone, the moment i needed a shoulder and at the perfect moment i am already ready to be in love and to try love the second time around. Youre coming has brought me to be a better woman once more. I want to wait for the day i can tell you personally how much i love you. I wish you could also wait for me honey. Everyday i am thinking of you- of you alone. Right now, i just had one more wish - to see you and the day i can give myself to you. Love you, love you and love u.

Monday, August 2, 2010

I love u Honey

I am looking around and waiting for you for few days but seems our schedules did not meet my baby. Juts want you to know that i missed u so much and i missed your talk and everything that we usually do. how i wish i could talk to u now. I love u my baby, our monthsary is already fast approaching, mwah